Time To Say Goodbye

[pdw2kxMember]

Fans, friends, brothers and sisters… it’s time to say goodbye.

I wish I could fully express how much it’s meant to me to be able to entertain you and interact with you and grow with you. In a very large way, I owe it to my followers and, of course, the Video Games AWESOME community as a whole for bringing a whole lot of light into a period of my life that was, to be honest, filled with a lot of darkness. No matter what else has happened, I now and will forever consider this little experiment an amazing moment in my life. And that’s all thanks to you and your support.

But times are changing. Things are changing in my life, and I’m changing because of them. I’m just glad to say that most of these changes are positive, and big steps in the right direction. I haven’t felt this good in quite some time, and because of that, I think I finally have the courage to not only finally make it official that I’m walking away, but also have the courage to walk away and stay away.

Because let’s be honest: the identity of PdW2kX has been dead for a while now. I admit that, I own up to that, and I do sincerely apologize for taking this long to finally make it official. I don’t want to bore you with the string of decisions and happenings that led me to this point, nor do I want to give you any indication that I’m bitter or regretful in any way.

Sometimes, things happen. Life really is what happens when you’re busy making other plans.

I would like to make this clear, above all else: I’m not bitter, and my only regret is that I’ve kept ya’ll hanging, wondering where I’ve been and what I’ve been up to. Please, guys, don’t worry about me. I’ve been busy living my life and enjoying every moment of it. I honestly just didn’t have the courage to own up to my mistakes, all my unannounced hiatuses and such, until now. I hope this mountain of text makes up for that in some small part.

In whatever years may come, I’ll always look back at this time as a “YouTube guy” and especially as a member of the VGA community with warm feelings and a giant heaping helping of nostalgia. I also want to make it clear that this decision has been due to a number of changes going on in my life, not due to one single positive or negative occurrence in particular.

I had a lot of fun doing this… creating Minecraft Awesome Is Awesome, becoming part of the VGA community, creating an online “persona” based on the “PdW2kX” name. As a gamer, it’s some of the most fun I’ve ever had. Would it be too weird to say it’s also some of the most fun I’ve ever had in my life, period? Maybe, but even if it is, I don’t really care, because I really do need ya’ll to know how much your friendship and kindness has meant to me.

That’s why I haven’t been able to face ya’ll, that’s why I’ve honestly been dreading typing all of this up. I don’t know of an easy way to say “goodbye”.

Here’s what I would like to say: just keep being awesome. Maybe it started as the “mantra” of my little Minecraft community, but now I truly believe this applies to any situation in life: love who you are and what you do, and never forget that you’re awesome. Remember to help each other, to love and respect each other, and you’ll never go wrong.

I would like to take some time to single out a few people, but before I do, I would like to make it clear that everyone that has every viewed, commented, watched, helped, or interacted with me in any way over YouTube, Minecraft, or as part of the VGA community holds a special place in my heart. You’re all my friends. I don’t want to put anyone on a pedestal, but I would feel worse if I didn’t mention these names. So, here they are.

There’s Fraser, of course. He’s been an inspiration to me, and he’s a constant inspiration to us all. I went into this hoping against hope that I wouldn’t be branded a Fraser rip-off, and the fact that Fraser himself approved of MAIA gave me the early confidence to continue the series back when I had no earthly idea what I was doing or what I wanted MAIA to be.

I’d like to thank 47Drift for being an awesome mod, an even more amazing person, and one of the main reasons I finally got over my shyness and joined the VGA Minecraft server.

I’d like to thank SilentWindODoom for being a constant fan and for his constant support. While I’ve lost count how many times I’ve made jokes about Silent becoming a mod and then staying a mod, I’m 100% certain that the Minecraft Awesome server is in good hands with him around.

Of course, all the VGA and Minecraft Awesome mods deserve a big “thank you” for their tireless and oftentimes thankless efforts to keep this community the amazing place it is. No matter what drama there’s been or what drama there will be, the mods deserve the recognition and respect of the entire VGA community.

And finally, I’d like to thank SamuelLeumas. Sam is an amazing person, and one of the biggest reasons I tried so hard to revive my interest in MAIA and keep my channel going. I’m sorry I let you down, brother. I hope you can forgive me.

It’s been a hell of a ride, folks. I can’t thank you enough for joining me on it. But, as I said when I first started typing this, it’s time to say goodbye. I’d like to leave you with two things: some final words and a final gift.

While I might be leaving the Minecraft Awesome server, I’m certainly not going to be leaving it like a pharaoh in some tomb. What I mean by that is: I’ll be giving away my entire inventory. Everything I own. I won’t be TNTing any builds or destroying the Scrapshack or anything drastic like that, since there’s zero ill will. All I want is to give back one more time.

Since I’m posting this on a Friday and I have the weekend off, all I can promise is that I’ll be popping onto the Minecraft Awesome server periodically from time to time over the weekend to grab my items, head to portal hub, and start donating them. I’ll announce it in the chat so people who want stuff can head to Portal Hub. I apologize if you’re interested but end up not getting anything, I really haven’t put much thought into this. I’d just like to have one of my last memories in the Minecraft Awesome server be of me puking up free items onto people.

So, now that I’ve said that, I’ll leave you with this: I love you guys. Being part of this community has meant the world to me. I hope you’ll remember the good times, because that’s what I’ll be doing. And no matter what else happened or will happen, at least remember this: we did have some good times, fans and friends. I wouldn’t have traded those good times for anything, and if asked today, I’d proudly say that I still wouldn’t.

So, one last time, fans and friends… my name is PdW2kX, and you are awesome.

[destroyoxMember]

Even though I never knew you I have to thank you for being an awesome and long time member of the community.

[savusMember]

You have always been and will always be a valued friend among us, a great source of inspiration, and an incredible entertainer. There have been times where I considered leaving the server, due to unfortunate circumstances and the tactless treatment of certain individuals, and felt i had no place here. But you convinced me otherwise. You showed me to look at things in a different light, and to continue on. For that I shall never forget you. You will be thoroughly missed, and always welcome, and I hope you have good times and fond memories whatever you do and wherever you go. Thanks for everything Pd. YOU, are awesome.

• This reply was modified 10 months, 1 week ago by  savus.

[aughtsModerator]

Good luck, Pd.

[Cliff JamestonModerator]

You know, I’ve been sitting here for a good while, trying to figure out just what would be an appropriate response to that beautiful wall of text. I really can’t, though. All I know, and all I can say, is that I, among many others, will miss you. I wish you luck in your future endeavors, and will remember you and your contributions to the server.
So long, Pd, may you always stay awesome.
-Cliff

[mrcheese777Member]

Its always hard to say goodbye to other community members, best wishes man.

[lemmykoopaMember]

Take care, man. Hope your new direction takes you to great places.

[dehietyiMember]

You will be sorely missed. Sad to see you go brother but I have high-hopes and good-wishes for you in your life. You did something special in this community and if nothing else that should prove to you that you are capable of great things. Best of luck to you.

[ashleyrose19Member]

I want to say that even though I didn’t know you, I have heard many good things about you and you sound like an amazing, no, AWESOME person. I hope you live a long and wonderful life and enjoy it to the fullest. Good luck to you, Pd. Stay Awesome.
~Ashley Rose

[bsugradMember]

I had been following MAIA for a long while now and enjoyed every episode along with the full on reactions you had to people’s builds. The pure enjoyment you had for the entire server was definitely infectious and I know you will carry that on to whatever you do. It was also nice to have one of your visits to my building, though it was unfinished at the time. No matter where life takes you, may it always be Awesome.

[Silent Wind of DoomModerator]

;_;

There are no words. This is a sad day for so many, many, many different reasons. I’m sorry for the loss we’ve now seen. I feel doubly terrible now for how unpleasant our final exchange went down. I really don’t know what to say. Perhaps I should just let Boyz II Men do the talking…

EDIT: Apparently embeds don’t work on this server service.

See you, space cowboy…

• This reply was modified 10 months, 1 week ago by  Silent Wind of Doom.

[darknessdragonMember]

you will be sorely missed pd. i’m sad to see you go like words cant express. youve been an inspiration to me and many others. because of you i had the will to keep minecrafting even when things looked down. heck ive built a community because of you. MAIA has always been fun and i will miss it being there.
i wish you the best and good luck.

and for now and ever YOU pdw2kx are and always will be AWESOME.

[Nulani t’AcrayaMember]

Best of luck and take care.

[stupidwowguyMember]

I didn’t see much of you on the server when I started out, probably because it was one of your break periods. But still, I’m very grateful for your massive project to explore this awesome server and show us the facets we don’t see in livestreams. It seems to have evolved into a real cornerstone of the community as a chronicle and enabler of interaction!
But your life’s taken a new direction, hopefully one that will give you as much fulfillment as it seems the server did. If you ever want to return though for any reason we’ll likely still be minin’ and craftin’ and minin’ some more, same as ever!

[soghogMember]

The only thing I can think of to say is Goodbye, Good Luck, and Thank you. You’ve been awesome Mr. Pd.

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